A mommy, wife and friend…a survior of child sexual abuse

Have you ever had one of those days?  I’m talking the kind where you wish you could just turn around and go back home.  That was my day.  It’s not easy to go to work knowing your hubby is home with your kids and each of you wish you were where the other is.  Don’t get me wrong, I am very thankful to have a job in this economy, but if it were up to me I would rather be the one unemployed and not my hubby.  There is just something with in moms that gives us the ability to stay at home with our kids and not have a stress headache at the end of the day.  Ok, that may not be true for all moms, but it is for me.

Anyways…my day at work was just down right shity!  My only two co-workers left in my department just both had something up their ass because for some reason just because they didn’t hear me respond with a Good Morning, that felt it was fine not to fucking talk to me all damn day!  What ever happened to I’m not sure you heard me, good morning!  Or hell, just going out there on a limb (and hoping it doesn’t break) what about asking me if I was feeling ok.  Because NO I was not.  Last Friday I had 7 precancerous spots frozen off my skin, one on each arm, one on one leg and four on the other leg.  On top of that I had three spots removed by freaking razor blade to be sent off to get tested for skin cancer.  I’ve been through this before, two other times, but damn it never feels good and you sure as hell do not get used to it!  You can call me one of the whitest white girls you have ever seen, so I get really burnt if out in the sun too much.  Damn genes from the parents.  I was slapped with the white skin stick from both sides.  Then spat on by the angels with freckles all over.  I don’t mind them, I love them now, but going through this is hell.  I’ve had several stiches already to remove the skin cancer.  So with this having been done, the economy, my hubby having no luck with the job hunting I have been feeling pretty down.  It would have been nice to have been able to talk to my coworkers but go figure.

My day did end on an up note though.  My mom knowing how the hubby and I have been feeling offered and came over to watch the boys so that the hubby and I could go out alone for a nice little dinner. It was really nice.  The hubby really enjoyed getting away from the kids for a bit and it really felt nice to just be able to talk to each other.  I love my mommy!  Yep, she wins the mommy of the year award!!!

Alright all you loyal readers, this makes two posts in two days.  Wow what a really nice treat for you!  I will try to make it a little more upbeat for you tomorrow.  Later!