A mommy, wife and friend…a survior of child sexual abuse

Make love to my husband that is.  I know he has to be just a bit frustrated knowing that in the next week he (we) will be “cut off”, so to speak for nearly six weeks.  As much as I would love to make love to him right now, thirty pounds of baby stuck smack dab on your belly puts a little hamper on things to say the least (and it is ALL up front, from the back I don’t even look pregnant).  Not to mention that it is a mere struggle to get my fat butt off the couch, oh and don’t even get me started on my rolling from one side to another at night, just to try to get comfortable and sleep – it is IMPOSSIBLE.  Ones’ ear can get mightly painful sleeping on one side for too long.  Yeah, and the body pillow has to roll with me.  I think it may take me a full minute at the least to roll completely from one side to the other.  I just hope in my struggles and moans of pain I don’t wake up the hubby too many times each night.  Yeah, back to the love making part, how many positions are left when you are 9 months pregnant?  Not too many that are really comfortable anyways.  Not to mention, what if my water broke in the middle?  Yikes!  Talk about ruining the moment.  Yeah, like to explain that one to the doctors when you go into the hospital smelling like “teen spirit”.  Yeah, it would be nice for the hubby too, him thinking I’m all breathing heavy for him, sorry honey, I’m breathing heavy now a days because I have a baby pushing up on my diaphragm and lungs.  Whoa, I’m out of breathe just sitting here typing.  Ok, enough of this, it is a bit depressing because I want to be intimate with the hubby before we get too busy with a newborn that has no concept that his mommy and daddy NEED the alone time!  Maybe two tylenol and a body massage would help! ; )