I AM still only human
Although I was abused by my father there are certain days I do think about him. This past week was his birthday. I did think about him on his birthday, however short it was. I first simply thought it was his birthday, then I thought about how many years it has been since I even spoke the words “Happy Birthday Dad”. Lastly I thought, this man doesn’t even call his own mom on her birthday, so I should not feel bad for not calling him. I don’t feel bad, I only feel sad that this man has put himself in the position of loneliness. He doesn’t have a relationship with his daughter and will never have one with his grandchildren. Yet I can’t feel any guilt for this, he alone did this to himself, by his actions of sexual abuse.
OneOfMany said,
3 March 2008 at 11:32 am
You’re so right. My father was a musician, but he was also a pedophile. I struggle with the fact that he instilled in me a huge love of music but also a hatred for the things he did to me behind closed doors. I miss the Dad who was a great musician and that’s confusing. I don’t want to miss any part of him!!! I really don’t. And, I truly believe that the prison he’s in is where he belongs. One step at a time… right?