Can you give it a try?
More on that new manager…
He has changed the accounting structure for coding invoices (yes I’m in accounting – I pay all the bills basically). When he was going through the process to change the number structure from oh 24 numbers to 41 numbers he never once asked the person responsible for entering all the invoices their input. You guessed it, that person would be ME! Now mind you while he was explaining the new numbers I was full of questions and was totally giving him a hard time about it. He asks me to just give it a try. WHAT THE F@%#! Is he entering the invoices? NO. Does he even code the invoices? NO. So he is asking me to give something a try that doesn’t really affect him nor does he use on a daily basis. Ok. So I’m FORCED to try it. What the hell!
First time I try it something IS NOT RIGHT!!! Now, I can’t get some of the invoices entered, how will they be paid, who will look bad??? ME! I’m the one everyone goes to when invoices are not paid!! So please don’t ask me to try something when NO consideration was taken. If you ask me, it was a lack of respect! Not to mention his condescending emails to tell me what I need to do. Hello!!! Wasn’t I working here long before you came?? I think I know how to do my job, my last raise and review certainly reflected such.
UUUGGGHHHH!!!! He is driving me insane. I need lots of words of wisdom to work with this…..person.
Not so average now!
Ok, so yesterday I was feeling a little depressed about myself, my looks in particular. Well that has changed! I went and got my hair cut. I asked for some sexy bangs. You see my bangs were as long as my hair so they pretty much ended up behind the ears or up in a clip. BORING!!! Yeah, can you see why I got bored with that look. Anyhoo, I got me some sexy bangs now! No, but serious I’m feeling better today and I like my new hair do. Ready for a night on the town!!
I’m only average
Have you ever had one of those days where you just want to crawl in bed and stay there all day? It seems as though I am having one of them. I wished I could have stayed in bed today. Work was shit! Although I got to leave work early to do some preparation for my weekend road trip. However while sitting at the car dealership waiting, I saw two beautiful women, well taken care of. One was having daddy buy her a brand new SUV. Gees my daddy never did that! I didn’t have that, oh yeah I did get a car, an old used tank as my first car. But not a full size SUV! Then looking at these two women you know they take care of themselves, have nice things, got the money to do all the pretty girl primping things. I could do them, but then sacrifice the things for my son! He comes first! The more I thought about it the more I began to think it is time for a change. What can I do? Cut my hair, not sure, I have been growing it all year to get it longer. Shit nothing comes to mind. I just wish there was something I could do to get out of this hum drum look I feel I have. I guess a lot of women feel this way about themselves, but when you are feeling it that shit just doesn’t matter.
Anyone out there have any cheap and easy girly primping secrets?
Special Friends
Not many people get to have those life long friends like our parents generation. With so many kids the product of divorced families, moving, and military families. But when you have one of those you don’t want to lose them. I almost lost one of my life long friends. I only met her in high school. We were best of buds, hung out together, ran track together, and even tried out for some flag twirling team together. Neither of us made it (I think) but we both had a blast together. Then I moved because of Alan. You see, many do not see this side of the abuse. I lost my best friend, my sister! We lived nearly an hour a way and with those times it was never easy to hang out anymore. We did the occasional thing here and there. But as we got older and life got in the way it seems we kinda grew apart a bit. Well one day I sent her a card and it came back that she no longer lived at that address. I was so bummed! I hadn’t seem her already in at least a year or two and now I had no idea where she was. After about 8 years of not knowing where she was I found her! I came across her profile on a site and emailed her. It was her! I was so excited. We have been talking for the past few months and it seems like we never lost touch. She still is a best friend to me and like a sister as well. I get to visit her this weekend! I am so very excited to catch up on lost time that I know time will be against me as I will not be able to stay for very long. So here’s to life long friends!
How Ironic
How ironic is it when I just posted about not going to my counseling in a while and talking about how I’m not sure what I should do. What am I talking about? My counselor called me yesterday on my way home. I was honest and told her I didn’t know where I was at. She is just too good, just told me to call her when I’m ready. Then the hubby mentioned again his feelings of hope for me to go. He doesn’t want me to wait for that crap to rear its ugly head up again. I can understand, but I haven’t decided on anything yet.
Lets see what today holds
My co-workers in my department are not here today; which means I’m the only one that manager will go to for questions. I’m so hating today and gees it’s Friday and I should really be happy. Let’s see what he thinks when I tell him he’s reached his quota for the day!! Yeah Yeah!! I’ll be ecstatic come 3pm cuz that’s when I’m tearing outa here!!
So far we have this:
1) That new manager came to my office to ask me a question, I answered as much as I could. Then I replied: “You are going to have to ask “my co-workers name here”, because I am not sure. Then he proceeds to continue to ask, same question different version. So my reply again: “You are going to have to ask “my co-workers name here”, because I am not sure. Then he proceeds to ASK AGAIN! What the hell are you on moron did you not hear me the first TWO times. So again I reply: “You are going to have to ask “my co-workers name here”, because I am not sure. This time with just a bit of frustration in my voice, because El Lam-o standing next to me just wasn’t getting the idea! Ok manager you can leave now because you are really annoying me now. Until next time, because I know there will be a next time. Oh I’m so counting the hours until I leave. I need to get a phone call telling me that I’ve won some big prize and need to go collect some grand amount of cash so I can leave for a few weeks!!
2) So I am the person that cuts checks for my company. And there is well a set guideline for when we cut these checks and when they are released. Well, that manager asked me to do a special check run for ONE check! Are you kidding me dude? For one little check that you were so slow in getting the approval through. You want me to cover your ass when the vendor starts asking where is my money. Why the hell did it take you soooo long to do your job. I’m sorry cutting one check is NOT that big a deal to do. What is, is getting the Controller of our huge company to sign one check one day and the rest on another day. Oh yeah, I’m not the only business unit the controller signs checks for. So dude your answer is NO. I will release it early but I’m not going cut one check early to cover YOUR ASS! What’s the next thing you come to me about?? I wish I could turn my music up louder!!!!
Ok, well I survived the day! Fairing much better then I thought. There were no more interruptions after the “check cutting” incident. So my afternoon was pretty quite. Now bring on the weekend!!
That manager at work again.
Please tell me what do you do when there are five people in your department (including this manager whom you are referencing about) and this manager doesn’t get along (personality conflicts, managers lack of communication skills or managerially skills and I just don’t think this manager really knows what they are doing) with three people and the only one they get along with is the one that hired them because they used to work together. Does anyone else see something wrong with this? I’m not the kind of person that brings crap home from the office, the kinda crap that you complain about. But ever since this manager started I have been stressed by this person and I have to vent with my hubby. It’s not like me and I am really not enjoying my job anymore and I don’t like it, cause I actually like my job and enjoy going to work each day. Do I sound like a geek? If you have to be at your job for 9 plus hours a day you might as well enjoy it and get along with those you work with. I’m not a difficult person to work with and I pretty much get along with everyone but this manager is a real piece of work. I knew we were in for it when I first met this manger. Ok, that’s enough for now, stay tuned for more interesting crap about “the manager”.
In recovery…I’m lost
You can say I am in a state of limbo, confusion, or hell I don’t know what I’m doing. I’ve had the disappointment of the law not helping me. I would say my relationship with my mom has gone to hell and dug deeper. On top of all this I haven’t seen my counselor is several weeks. Do I want to? Not really. Just not into it anymore. Kinda like what is the use. Why go? I can do it on my own. Probably not, but right now, nah. This whole thing about my abuse and the crap that went on when I was younger and then I repressed it for so long I wonder, just repress it again. Will that work or will the lingering effects rear their ugly head in my relationship with my husband or my son. I don’t know and I’m not so sure what road I should take right now. Robert Frost help me; should I take the road less traveled??? I do love that poem. Anyhoo… Oh and those books my friend bought me, yeah, sorry goes out to my dear friend. I wasn’t a reader before and I ain’t been a reading them now. My son also pulled out one of the book marks so I’m like oh darn. It will take me starting the book over again to figure out where I was and I’m just not feeling it right now. You know what I need? A much needed long vacation. But that isn’t happening anytime soon. Just got a few weekends with friends coming up and then a weekend getaway with the hubby for our 5 year wedding anniversary. Yeah, we made it to 5 years! At times we didn’t think we would. Ok, a little off subject. Back to this little quandary (damn for the life of me I just can’t figure out the spelling of that there word, and spell check is not darn help) I’m in. (Got it) Anyone got any thoughts as to what road I should take? Any input will be taken in and then delivered upon and then the jury will sit on it for a while and then well…you get the picture. No really, if any of you have any thoughts I really do want to hear.
