I’ll tell you a little more…
Alan lives in North Carolina, he has a wife (whom seems to be clueless as to what he did). Alan is 6′2″ and weighs at least 260lbs. Last I saw him he looked very homely, was missing a tooth (like one before his molar) and had “let” himself go. He is a very intimidating and manipulative man. He would act like your best friend but use you in a heart beat.
I pray…let no other women fall victim to his sick ways.
I pray…let no other child wonder into his sick sick world.
I pray…let no other mother be manipulated by him for his sick pleasure.
I pray.
To a survivor of sexual abuse…”it IS dirty”
As a survivor of sexual abuse masturbation is not an easy topic to think about much less discuss. When you escape the abuse and begin to heal and become the survivor you learn all about the things your abuser did were wrong. For me, Alan not only masturbated in front of me but he also talked about it. In the end knowing that the act of his masturbation in front of me was wrong everything he ever told me about it was wrong too. Yes, he told me that it was something normal, to me now it is not. He told me that it IS ok for women to masturbate, to me now it IS NOT ok. You see I have to rethink and relearn the things that ARE OK and that ARE NORMAL. Right now neither are ok or normal, when I know one TRULY is sick and wrong while the other in essence is ok.
