A mommy, wife and friend…a survior of child sexual abuse

I’m an adult and I’ve known for quite some time the things Alan did to me were wrong.  So wrong!  They were criminal acts against his own child, his little girl.  Daddy’s little girl.  But that does not make it any easier to put your daddy in jail.  There was a time where he was a daddy and he didn’t do anything.  Then one day that all changed, why?  I don’t know if I will every know why.  I broke off all communication with Alan some 6+ years ago.  I know he was still sick in the head and it was not healthy for me.  He wanted to take pictures of me topless in camo gear with a rifle in front of me to hide my breasts.  What hiding that would have been if he could still see.  I think he wanted the pictures to keep for himself and have to look at any time he wanted to.  Sick, just sick.  What father would want to have topless pictures of his daughter!!

So at my meeting with the detective she had a recent picture from Alan’s current drivers license and asked me to verify it was him.  Yup, it was, and in an instant the tears began to flow.  I can’t look at him.  It is not easy seeing your daddy as the molester you are putting in jail.   But jail is where he belongs.  You can NOT do these things to a girl and expect to get away with it.  It is wrong, it is criminal behavior and it scares the victim for a long long time.

I also told myself a long time ago that Alan would never have any contact with any of my kids.  And I said this before I even had my son!  I knew he was still sick and I know he would do something to my kids too.   A molester just doesn’t stop one day.

Alan you are NOT my daddy you are my molester and your day will come.  You violated me!  You hurt me!  I trusted you!  You were so wrong!  You can’t do these things to your daughter, you baby girl!  You will be where you belong shortly you and then there I hope you get the help you NEED!