More to the story…sexual abuse
How could a father do such a thing to his daughter? My answer would be that he is a sick individual, something happened to him as a child, and he was just plain stupid. Only he knows the true answer to that. Yet he is too chicken to admit his wrong doings. I asked him once to sit down to discuss things that happened, I wanted answers too. He was not willing to do that. He knows he did wrong. But I have to live with that. It was actually a relief, I didn’t have to see him. Yeah, it is hard not to have a dad, but he wasn’t “all” there when he was in my life. He was harsh, cold, intimidating, a true hardass. Oh yeah, he also had been a cop for over 10 years! Amazing huh! An ex-cop molested his daughter! Go figure…Wait, it gets better. At the time of the abuse, he was married. Yup, I had a step-mother. The little naive women. She had NO CLUE. I think he touched me more then her. And when she found out, I think she denied it. I’ve never really spoken to her since, a casual hi here and there in passing at family events in the past. I’m sure she is a good person, but I don’t know how she could stay with someone that abused a child. Or maybe he never told her. I don’t know, that’s an answer to one of my burning questions. I think I may find out someday. Sooner then later now. Til next time, stand strong for yourself.
tobeconfirmed said,
5 July 2007 at 3:13 am
Hi – you have my utmost respect for having the courage to deal with what happened to you and to start talking about it. It must be incredibly hard to revisit all of those times that made you feel so bad, but it will be worth it as once the issues are out there, you can deal with them.
When you are going through all this, you will find there are times when you are incredibly vulnerable and feel like you do not have the strength to continue. At these times, remember you are not alone – turn to your loved ones and lean on them, they want to help.
My thoughts are with you and keep posting.
callinghimout said,
5 July 2007 at 7:38 am
Thank you for your comment. I truly appreciate everyone’s input. As this continues to give me the strength to push forward. Yes, it is very hard to revisit these times, as my mind wanted to “protect” me from the pain so some of the memories we “blocked”. I’ve remembered few of those.
Ginger said,
5 July 2007 at 10:35 am
What a beast. The very people you are supposed to trust to protect you completely failed you. I hope you will continue to find strength as you embark on this difficult journey of healing.
As you are doing this, please know that you have total strangers pulling for you!
callinghimout said,
5 July 2007 at 11:01 am
Thanks Ginger. Means a lot.